This is a sad time, I want you to have something to think back on and smile. Think of all!!!!! the get together's and BBQs in the trailer park so many years ago. Everyone yelling every kids name until the right one was called, the fireworks going off, all the laughter and love which was shown on his face when he smiled and was chasing someone with a squirt gun or water balloon, just having a great time with his family. I am so very sorry for the loss of your family member, nothing anyone can say will matter right now, just know your family is loved.